Infant Behavior – Don’t Ever Let Me Go

I’m not new at being a mom.  Not by any stretch of the imagination.  Between two nephews, two nieces, and two boys of my own, I’d seen lots of infant behavior… but I can still be surprised.  One thing that I’m learning is that Eudora’s infant behavior can be so completely different from her brothers and cousins.  Sure, Norton was a pretty happy baby, but he was fairly independent.  No cuddles for him, and only his Daddy could comfort him when he was hurt.  Andy was also pretty happy, but from birth, he was all about his Papa.  I love my boys, and my boys love me, but I’ve never had that feeling of being number one.

With Eudora, I’m finding things to be so incredibly different.

Sometimes a shirt can say it all. <3

It’s amazing.  There are times when Eudora is cranky and the only thing in the world she wants is me.  Sure, I can get annoyed with the whole “Velcro baby” thing when she won’t let me put her down… but there’s this thing that she does that just fills me with joy.  Sometimes when I’m holding her up against my shoulder, she just grabs on to me so tightly.  It’s like she’s saying “Hold me, Mommy, and don’t ever let me go.”

When she does that, stopping what I’m doing is not a problem.  Those are the moments that I savour.  Those are the times that I can really and truly just focus on my little girl, how tiny and fragile she is.  When she clutches my shoulder, all that I can do is just kiss the top of her head, smell her sweet baby scent, and hold her as tightly as she wants for as long as she wants.

After all, she won’t be a baby forever.  Instead of watching the calendar for her milestones, I just take the time to enjoy it.  Enjoy her wanting my attention.  Enjoy her wanting to be held.  Enjoy her needing me.  A time will come when she’ll want none of those things, and she’ll be grown up and will no longer need me at all.  When that time comes, of course, I’ll know that I did my job and she became an adult.  But until then, I’ll just treasure this wonderful little infant behavior, and remember it as a wonderful thing when it’s over.

Stuff like this is what being a mom is all about.

About Suzi

Suzi is an American ex-pat living in British Columbia. She's a cloth diaper addict, wife, mom of three, and President of the Prince George chapter of Cloth for a Cause.


  1. I am the same with my second little girl. My first is such a daddys girl i was never needed! Now i am all this one wants and i give her all the time she needs! Not looking forward to days when she doesnt need a cuddle! Because i still will 🙂 x

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