I haven’t even had my first prenatal ultrasound yet, but still, every now and again I think of the possibility of carrying twins. After all, I do keep feeling that weird rolling sensation, and my research has indicated that ridiculously early (like first trimester early) fetal movement is a sign of carrying twins.
This does not appeal to me.
I know that I have an increased likelihood of carrying twins since I took Clomid. Unfortunately, I haven’t found exactly what I’m looking for as of yet: a perfect statistical calculator that will determine exactly what my chance of having twins comes out to.
I like statistics. I find comfort in statistics. If I could find out for sure that I have a one in fifty chance of having twins, awesome. But unfortunately, I’m finding numbers that range from 5% to 30% due to Clomid. Then there’s my age. (Never mind how old I am. I’m twenty-five and holding. That’s my story and I’m sticking to it. I’m just not telling how long I’ve been holding.) Then there’s the fact that I was technically one pound overweight when I got pregnant, and being overweight is supposed to increase the chance of having twins.
Really, though, we went through all of this effort because we only want one baby. Not two. Or three or more. I just don’t know if I could possibly handle being a stay at home mom to a busy toddler and newborn twins. Besides that, my house isn’t big enough for two more children, particularly considering I always keep it so that there’s room for Andy in case he ever decides he wants to come home. The possibility of having twins just seems too much.
Okay, on the bright side, I certainly have enough cloth diapers for twins and a toddler. But right now I’m only at the point where I’m thinking maybe I could possibly consider trying breastfeeding. With one. No way I could pull that off with twins, particularly considering I’m still not entirely comfortable with the idea. Or the time. Or the insanity.
I don’t know how my friend Christy does it: she has toddler twins and a newborn baby to go along with it. While I’m glad that she has the family that they love, I’m just overwhelmed by even the mere thought of carrying twins.
Let’s just hope that my extreme fatigue is officially ruled to be anemia and not a sign of a litter of children. But I’ll have to wait until I have that first prenatal ultrasound to know for sure.
Did you have any twin concerns with your pregnancy?
Originally written on August 9, 2011. I had Eudora, just one baby. So it definitely was NOT twins. I never did find out the statistical probability of a twin pregnancy.
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